So for myself - and for you, if you're having a tough writer's block, or if this can help you another way - I just thought it would be a good thing to talk about why I love writing.
Today, I was looking back on all the work I did in 2014. By far, the month I wrote the most individual pieces in was October. As I read my way through all of those works - which were mainly poems, but partially short stories - I realized one of the best things about my writing: Even when I don't mean for it to, it reflects so much on my life.
In October, it was less subtle. I began writing poetry directly inspired by events I had gone through, instead of my previous fiction works (which also always held quite a bit of truth). So it was easy to see the changes in my emotions. I started out that month so angry, which is something I completely forgot about. Through the poems, I watched myself shift from that to sadness, sometimes to hopefulness, or back to anger -- and through the few poems I managed to write in November, I saw how much happier and more peaceful my work (and my life) had become.
I just think it's great that those feelings were documented so well. Most of the poetry I wrote was awful, but it's stuff I will always look back on and enjoy reading just the same. At the end of the day, I think it's easy to forget why we write.
I write for myself. I don't write in a diary, and I rarely write nonfiction, but writing has always helped me work through my thoughts, emotions, and problems. This is something I lost touch with for awhile, but it is the part of writing I love best. It's the reason I would not give away my ability to write for anything in the world - even if no one else ever reads a word. Even if I am never published. Even if my work is awful.
So that is what I'm going to try focusing on this year. Not writing well. Not writing something that could potentially be published. Just writing. For me.